25 Nov 2010; 2 Sam 21

2 Sam 21
When somthing bad happen, what do you do? Blame it on someone, on something, some situation, or just pure luck.

A famine broke out for one year. Just the weather...
A famine continue for the second year, pray that it will be over soon
A famine still on for the third year. David sought the face of the Lord.

God answered and explained the cause.

Problem starts, with my effort it should be solved, the problem continue, pray that it will be over. The problem continue, sought the Lord.

Why not sought the Lord in the first place?

I am feeling a famine in my walk with you. I have not known where and what to do or simply being in your presence.

But I remembered, the week I sought you in early dawn prayers. A break through happen for my family.

Le me sought you and ask so that I cam simply listen to what you have to sy for me to being or to act.

24 Nov 2010; 2 Sam 20

2 Sam 20
Mistake after mistake David made.

First he had left the concubines as widows. When I read this I felt so unfair.
second, he made Amasa as the commander instead of Joab. Joab killed Amasa. Joab would have rebel against David and caused another unroar for David.

david has just settle the rebellion of his son Absalom.

David was a fighter, but not a ruler of his internal household. He was indeed great to rule Israel, Judah and against the enemies of God. But where is the balance?

It is sad to see our ministry expanded but yet in the end loses our love ones. But what is God intend? What has God call me to?

God has called me to Him. He gave me a family, for the vision He showed me was big and it probably need generations of work. He gave me Josef my first born. He made me a father, a husband, the head of my houshold.

I am not in ministry, then get the household in order, that they may walk the same way I walk with God. When I am in ministry, let them see how the Lord lead, and I follow, that they may follow too.

Teach me this balance between minstry and my family. My family is my ministry too. Amen.

9 Nov 2010; 2 Sam 19

2 Sam 19
Absalom was dead. David mourn for him, so much more that Joab was unhappy that David was concern about Asalom than the men who fought for David.

My father was dead, and I felt a sense of in-depth to him, that I have not done enough for him. He has unselfish, always putting others above self.

Yes, that was still anger in me because ....

David claimed back Jerusalem and we saw in the passage David pronounce judgement on the people who did him wrong. In many surprises, he choose to forgive.

Forgive. Of course to the person who has determine that is no fault of him, he has done nothing wrong. There was no need to aplogize nor a need to ask for forgiveness. But to me, it has caused pain in me to see my father sitting at the back of the kitchen to take his meal. Isolated.

Well, all is gone, the chapter is closed, BUT to me I will take down my pride just as Daivd has - forgive. To me, I will not consider myself above others so that least of all, that some may come to know Christ.

8 Nov 2010; 2 Sam 15

2 Sam 15
Why did Absalom need to rebel and set himself king over David? His conspiracy worked and he did it by buying over the heart of the people.

But he did not set his heart right with God. David would not kill the Lord annointed one, but Absalom would. The focus on the kingdom become too important for him, so much more than to rebel against his own father.

To me what more important is my walk with God and my family. These are 2 that will last eternally.

I am set as the head of the household, so Lord teach me to lead my family. Lead me so that I can teach them to lead a life that fear the Lord. for then they will know the right way to live a life worthy of conduct.