1 Mar 2011; Ps 139

Psalm 139
The start of this psalm made me feel that my God is with me. Of whom shall I fear. He knows me, my in and my out. He is with me, my going in and my going out. Where can I go that He is not there.

Such comfort.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea.. God is with me.

For you created my inmost being.. my frame, and your eye saw my unformed body when I was made in the secret place.

Such a God who know me before and after.

How precious to me are your thoughts, o God...
BUT the tone in the psalm came to a change in v19
19 Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me!
20 They speak against you with malicious intent;
your enemies take your name in vain! [2]
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22 I hate them with complete hatred;
I count them my enemies

The sudden change - a contrast from floating in the midst in and with God, made a twist with such evil thoughts. It is as if I have level myself with God because God is with me and saw the wicked of men, God enemies are my enemies...

But who am I, really who am I to consider these men as wicked, not worthy, God haters..

I am just like them, but because God is with me. Search my heart that I may not consider myself better, higher .. than anyone else.

Like the way the psalmist realised in the last 2 verse of Ps 139, 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts! [3]
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!

I thank you that my God is such a comfort, that my God is forever with me and knows me in depth. Search my thoughts that these thoughts may be always right with you.

Men who are evil may not know you, but I do because you have first know me. Let me then continue to grow deep in and with you. amen