19 May 2008

Joy
Where is your joy? Will you be joyful when you have what you need?

Joy is about knowing who God is - the knowledge of God. It is about your inner attitude as well as the conditions of your heart. Joy is the natural outcome of this process of spiritual discipline. A life that know who God is - is an empowered life.

In order to have so - gain that spiritual eyesight and live a life that is with God's wisdom. The fear of the Lord is the begining of wisdom and again the fear of the Lord is about respect, submission, knowledge and a relationship with the Lord.

The life of David underwent a valley, running away from King Saul and into hidding and away from hidding to running. But David has the Lord - he sought the Lord out and in everything he do, he inquire the Lord. King Saul knew that with David his kingdom cannot be established - his aim was to destroy David - then he can have peace and enjoy the authority, the power the control. The fear of losing control - obssesses him so much that he fell short of the wisdom of God.

David had the chance to kill Saul. After he kill Saul, he will be free and would be able to stop running away and into hidding. Peace. But no, it is about God and what God wanted. The knowledge of knowing who this God is and what He wanted David to do. David did not kill Saul and even though he had no peace - he had God - true joy.

I know all this - now is how I earnestly seek the Lord my God. I pray that I will seek the Lord my God through his words, through worship and through prayer. It is not about gaining the world or about losing control - a total surrender and knowing God.

I pray against a life that is chronically busy - majoring the minors. I pray that my priorities - to put first thing first - Jesus first. There is a need to seek you first, my family than my work.

I pray for my trip to China. I pray that I can have a good personal time with Paul Ong. Let me hear from him and I pray that this relationship will continue to grow. Let me go with expectation in you and change my heart - not for that week but for a life time, that I may once again hear from you and encounter with you. I pray for opportunities to share the knowledge of Christ as well as the right people in springboarding the next phase of work in China. Lead me.

I pray that during my absence, you look after and protect my family. Yes as Rachael pray - guard the marriage and the love relationship I have with Rachael. There has been a number of things happened one after another, but the business will not hinder the time we have for each other. Protect my children against hurt and deseases. Protect my father and continue to keep him strong despite his chemotheophy.